DAMMIT

its been long time since i updated my blog.

maybe its because of Joan?cus she just updated too..

well..its 2012

is it the end? the start of everything?

i missed high school life.

its just like taking care of a naughty annoying pet..

they bug u and annoys u everyday but when you lose them

U WILL MISS IT BADLY

Peralihan - a kid who cant think for myself and mix with bad friends

Form 1 - bad kid, skip school and class, lie to parents

Form 2 - almost the same as form 1 but with better friends

Form 3 - in a class where i have few friends and classmates are childish

Form 4 - fell in love, have changed a whole new group of friends

Form 5 - Stress, bad luck, bad friends, bad result.

that is a basic recap of my school life in SMK bagan jaya.

SOON i will be leaving Penang and head to KL.

i hate it.

i know its the best for me, for me to study there n have new friends.

but i cant leave here.

my family.

friends.

GOOD and REAL friends.

and my GIRL.

Joan will be studying in penang.

I will be studying in KL

Jolynn is at NS

Bryan is moving to KL for work

GIGI is at London

hao chern studying in penang (i guess)

and others im not sure but u get the point of it.

FRIENDS! YOU!

stay connected.

i know...ofcourse its connected..we have fb we have skype, whatsapp blah blah blah

i mean our friendship.

i dont want to have a day where we see each other at a place and dint even say HI

and you too...

wait for me ok?

its only KL..

trust me..

WHOLE NEW LIFE IN 2012

im gonna ride the swag and soul in 2012 real smoothly

i hope the earth wont explode because if it does

means i just wasted my life studying-.-

just few updates

i have gotten my L license..that rocks!!

the driving school manual kancil really sucks...damn old...

even i pull the handbreak harder also can break...wack...

and keep on "mati enjin" at slope there....

hope on dec 30th my JPJ test can one shot pass...

my dear dear now its at Portugal...few days before its at spain..

she is so lucky..can go so much places enjoy...

and i just been to China and its lame and boring...and its few decades ago..! @@

i really miss her so much...i cant use to my phone sms ringtone not ringing..and the ringtone that she called me...and not the normal ringtone i use for random caller...

im so sorry sometimes i dint sms you often my baby..sometimes im busy and im...

im still use to you sms-ing me and i reply...so im sorry...

hope you can enjoy and dont worry so much about me!

i will wait for you come back to Malaysia and listen to your story :)

i have taken good care of bear bear..xixi...but baby when you come back still cant sit my car...im so sorry..next year only can..haha...

dear. i love you

so, what more random stuffs to update...

hmmm...

my dance? what am i doing now?

yup..i less skate alot..i really wanna skate back and go back to the old days...

but...i have not been skated for a long period and my legs are not brothers to my board...

i cant even do a perfect ollie...and dont talk about kickflips...

so now i been dancing...popping class...going to have a flash mob peformence at Sunway carnival..on 1.1.2011..HOPE YOU GUYS CAN BE THERE AND SUPPORT! ILEARN!

thats about it then...after all...i missed my baby...more then i miss everything...

baby...when you come back to malaysia! ATLEAST GIVE ME A MISSCALL OK?

cus i havent seen my phone ringing with your pic displaying on the screen loonngg time d T.T

missed that...

my dear...muckssss!!!!!!!!!

Blah blah blah..

long time dint update blog..pheww..

well..things have changed..my brother is law just passed away by heart attack...

i pity my sis..they love each other alot..and they have much more things to do..

but its just diffrent now......your lover leave you this way..is the most painful way..

so baby...i gotta zhen xi you more^^

and another dope thing is..IM STEPPIN IN TO THE DANCING SCENE!

just started my popping class and its dope..

cant wait to go to studio again...

my baby...

things went well now...we less quarrel..and she treat me so good^^

i really love her..but..sometimes i keep on bully her..im so**y baby..:(

on sunday baby went to my new house! finally!

im so happy to have her there...xixi..she finally saw my room! which is very dirty..haha!

with Calvin and pei nee...they even cook instant noodle =.=

i cant wait for December to come! its so exciting.. being with my baby whole day whole night^^ YEAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

hahaha..all i gotta say is...i love you bibi..bubu will always be with u^^

不可以走

我现在要学会跟加珍惜你。。

没了你的日子是不能过的。。

和你一起做的事。。

我要珍惜。。

简单的信息。。 好过电话没响。。

给你骂。。 好过没人管我。。

给你打我胸口。 好过没人疼。。

为你花钱。。 好过我钱自己花。。

迁你的手。。 好过我的手冷冷没人迁。。

吃你喂我的食物 好过我自己吃没人喂。。

捏我的脸。。 好过没人捏。。

叫我比比。。 好过没人这样叫我。。。

爱我。。 好过没人爱。。

比比我真的会珍惜你，

疼你

爱你

mistake

I'm so sorry dude, i made a mistake

i dint know you will take it so seriously

i dint treat u as spotlight at all, never

because you are like my bro

i cant just think you are a spotlight, i dont mind also if u do

all i can say is sorry

i feel so bad i made this mistake...

...

she off her phone...what should i do...

Ramdom 3

so yesterday i went to penang..with my baby and bunch of friends..

i dint plan to go untill my baby say she is coming with me^^

i had a blast yesterday..i feel very happy too..because she..

she keep on hold my hand..and not like last time..

she will stick with me..she wants to hold my hand..=)

so we went to queensbay first and prangin..

bought myself a short..and went to PDI bought me and my babe a polo T ^^

than later...something really bad..happened..

i hold her hand..walking..than i meet my relatives..

for the first sec..i thought about walking over to say hi

but im holding her hand...so i dint think about anything..i shake her hand off..

walk stright and ignore her untill i walk pass my relative...

than later..i hold her hand back and say its my relative walk by..

her face..totally changed from the face i love to see whole day in the morning and afternoon..into the face im terrified to see..

my heart went blank..i know..i know how she feels..when the min i shake her hand off..

i know how hurt that feels..

but than she keep on the face untill we found my friends eating at the restaurant..

than we talk about it..she finally changed her face back to normal a...3/4..haha

than when we finished eating..

we walk around the shops..

i hold her hand..walking towards a junction..

i saw my cousin and her 3 kids with her husband..im thinking...

i cant let her feel that way again..so i hold her hand and they just walk passed..

i told her..who are they..blah blah blah..

her face changed back to the "bad" face...

this time even worse....

i cant explain how frustrated and heart broken on that moment..

i feel like i just wanna walk into a wall and kill myself..

she told me" i just want you to be proud, hold my hand and walk towards tham and say...this is my girlfriend."

when she told that to me i knew it...

my eyes already got tears in it..just dint flow down..

but after that..she finally changed back to normal^^ the face im missing for the pass few hours or so..

so we went back that day very exhausted..

Today..

woke up and recieved her msg=)

so i replied her..and i went to play badminton with my sis and cousins..

and she..is taking an english exam at penang..

so after the test..she got into level 3^^ im so happy for her..really..

so she went to gurney with her mother..

my phone batt just left only 1 bar and no charger.......!@@^%$%^!^

so she send me a msg..say.." my mom said we cant hold hands"

my heart went broken again..and some few more msg..

we are only 16..only holding hands..

we cant hug or do anything...very eye saw..

blah blah blah..

im very disappointed..

so she send me a last msg saying.." so we just hand hand alright?"

im about to send her back a few words but my phone suddenly.." battrey empty..recharge"

so i just quickly reply her an " en" to her..i know its bad to reply this...

but fucking phone..so i got no way...

im soo worried about her..i took a nap and woke up..wanting to find her badly..

i called her using my house phone..dint pick up..

i borrow my sis phone..want to write a msg to her..and my sis keep asking me to quickly..

sony phones=.=

and i just send"dont worry about me, im fine"

but than she called on my house phone..

saying.."what?" blah blah blah

feels so bad...

but than i say what happend..and everything..im fine..

so she say..later u look at your phone than you know...

shit..im so scared that moment..so so scared..i think this is the end..

i cant control myself right now! im so scared!!

but i remembered what she said.." i wont leave you"

i wonder it is true..

if its not that she wanted to say...some other bad stuffs..i cant stand the pain too..im SCARED!

untill now..i cant on my phone...just listening to my own heartbeat...how fast it is right now...

i really really love you baby...im sorry for the things i've done....