Tuesday, June 8, 2010

mistake

I'm so sorry dude, i made a mistake
i dint know you will take it so seriously
i dint treat u as spotlight at all, never
because you are like my bro
i cant just think you are a spotlight, i dont mind also if u do
all i can say is sorry
i feel so bad i made this mistake...

Sunday, June 6, 2010

...

she off her phone...what should i do...

Ramdom 3

so yesterday i went to penang..with my baby and bunch of friends..
i dint plan to go untill my baby say she is coming with me^^

i had a blast yesterday..i feel very happy too..because she..
she keep on hold my hand..and not like last time..
she will stick with me..she wants to hold my hand..=)

so we went to queensbay first and prangin..
bought myself a short..and went to PDI bought me and my babe a polo T ^^
than later...something really bad..happened..
i hold her hand..walking..than i meet my relatives..
for the first sec..i thought about walking over to say hi
but im holding her hand...so i dint think about anything..i shake her hand off..
walk stright and ignore her untill i walk pass my relative...
than later..i hold her hand back and say its my relative walk by..

her face..totally changed from the face i love to see whole day in the morning and afternoon..into the face im terrified to see..

my heart went blank..i know..i know how she feels..when the min i shake her hand off..
i know how hurt that feels..

but than she keep on the face untill we found my friends eating at the restaurant..
than we talk about it..she finally changed her face back to normal a...3/4..haha
than when we finished eating..
we walk around the shops..
i hold her hand..walking towards a junction..
i saw my cousin and her 3 kids with her husband..im thinking...
i cant let her feel that way again..so i hold her hand and they just walk passed..

i told her..who are they..blah blah blah..
her face changed back to the "bad" face...
this time even worse....
i cant explain how frustrated and heart broken on that moment..
i feel like i just wanna walk into a wall and kill myself..
she told me" i just want you to be proud, hold my hand and walk towards tham and say...this is my girlfriend."

when she told that to me i knew it...
my eyes already got tears in it..just dint flow down..

but after that..she finally changed back to normal^^ the face im missing for the pass few hours or so..
so we went back that day very exhausted..

Today..
woke up and recieved her msg=)
so i replied her..and i went to play badminton with my sis and cousins..
and she..is taking an english exam at penang..

so after the test..she got into level 3^^ im so happy for her..really..
so she went to gurney with her mother..
my phone batt just left only 1 bar and no charger.......!@@^%$%^!^
so she send me a msg..say.." my mom said we cant hold hands"

my heart went broken again..and some few more msg..
we are only 16..only holding hands..
we cant hug or do anything...very eye saw..
blah blah blah..
im very disappointed..
so she send me a last msg saying.." so we just hand hand alright?"
im about to send her back a few words but my phone suddenly.." battrey empty..recharge"
so i just quickly reply her an " en" to her..i know its bad to reply this...
but fucking phone..so i got no way...
im soo worried about her..i took a nap and woke up..wanting to find her badly..
i called her using my house phone..dint pick up..
i borrow my sis phone..want to write a msg to her..and my sis keep asking me to quickly..
sony phones=.=
and i just send"dont worry about me, im fine"

but than she called on my house phone..
saying.."what?" blah blah blah
feels so bad...
but than i say what happend..and everything..im fine..
so she say..later u look at your phone than you know...

shit..im so scared that moment..so so scared..i think this is the end..

i cant control myself right now! im so scared!!
but i remembered what she said.." i wont leave you"
i wonder it is true..
if its not that she wanted to say...some other bad stuffs..i cant stand the pain too..im SCARED!
untill now..i cant on my phone...just listening to my own heartbeat...how fast it is right now...

i really really love you baby...im sorry for the things i've done....

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

如何疼你的男友

1、男友是拿来爱的,不是拿来气的。爱男友就是爱自己。

2、男友想吃苹果时马上就去洗。经验证明推来推去的结果不仅有伤和气而且所消耗的时间和能量已经能洗完苹果了。

3、点菜时要明确说出想吃什么。免得点完之后谁都不爱吃或者只有一方爱吃事后犯嘀咕。

4、吵架时绝不说分手或者离婚,免得事后下不了台。 ……要是我错了,吵过之后,看他还死绷着脸,我就装可爱,装可怜,装精灵鼠小弟、装蜡笔小新、装樱桃小丸子,总之,就是死皮赖脸地往他身上粘。这招屡试不爽!要是我占理,他错了,我就摆一副后娘脸,再适当赏他一些搭话的机会,他会十分诚恳地向我道歉,诚恳到我绷不住脸。

5、尽量不要用食物做礼物,免得吃完之后就忘记。

6、吵架时尽量少发火多流泪。

7、一定要记住的男友生日(阳历的和农历的),保证第一个向男友说生日快乐。

8、养成一见男友就笑的习惯,特别是下班回家开门时。

9、需要男友陪同而男友不能陪同的时候想象自己是保家卫国者的妻子,告诉他:你忙吧,我能行。

10、软磨硬泡的时候注意发挥女性特色。

11、故意在他半睡半醒的时候亲他并帮他盖好被子。

12、在他吹嘘自己的时候假装很崇拜他,并表现出对未来幸福生活充满希望的样子。 其实,更多的男士钟情于对女人炫耀自己的种种好处,这时只要聆听就好了。因为他只是想让你“崇拜”他一下,记得还要时常给他一个肯定的眼神。

13、在你看电视或碟片,看到故事里的婚姻生活很悲惨的时候,想一下你男友对你好的时候,不在身边的话就给他打个电话,在身边的话,就趴在他身上哭一会,并且说,我们不要那样好不好?

14、在男友向你献殷勤之后表现出特别兴奋的样子,并且说一句“男友你对我最好了!”以资鼓励。

15、偶尔的用不经意的语气对男友说起诸如某位男同事刚来的时候想请你去喝咖啡,而你却因为想要给他去买件T恤拒绝的事。