just few updates

i have gotten my L license..that rocks!!

the driving school manual kancil really sucks...damn old...

even i pull the handbreak harder also can break...wack...

and keep on "mati enjin" at slope there....

hope on dec 30th my JPJ test can one shot pass...

my dear dear now its at Portugal...few days before its at spain..

she is so lucky..can go so much places enjoy...

and i just been to China and its lame and boring...and its few decades ago..! @@

i really miss her so much...i cant use to my phone sms ringtone not ringing..and the ringtone that she called me...and not the normal ringtone i use for random caller...

im so sorry sometimes i dint sms you often my baby..sometimes im busy and im...

im still use to you sms-ing me and i reply...so im sorry...

hope you can enjoy and dont worry so much about me!

i will wait for you come back to Malaysia and listen to your story :)

i have taken good care of bear bear..xixi...but baby when you come back still cant sit my car...im so sorry..next year only can..haha...

dear. i love you

so, what more random stuffs to update...

hmmm...

my dance? what am i doing now?

yup..i less skate alot..i really wanna skate back and go back to the old days...

but...i have not been skated for a long period and my legs are not brothers to my board...

i cant even do a perfect ollie...and dont talk about kickflips...

so now i been dancing...popping class...going to have a flash mob peformence at Sunway carnival..on 1.1.2011..HOPE YOU GUYS CAN BE THERE AND SUPPORT! ILEARN!

thats about it then...after all...i missed my baby...more then i miss everything...

baby...when you come back to malaysia! ATLEAST GIVE ME A MISSCALL OK?

cus i havent seen my phone ringing with your pic displaying on the screen loonngg time d T.T

missed that...

my dear...muckssss!!!!!!!!!

Blah blah blah..

long time dint update blog..pheww..

well..things have changed..my brother is law just passed away by heart attack...

i pity my sis..they love each other alot..and they have much more things to do..

but its just diffrent now......your lover leave you this way..is the most painful way..

so baby...i gotta zhen xi you more^^

and another dope thing is..IM STEPPIN IN TO THE DANCING SCENE!

just started my popping class and its dope..

cant wait to go to studio again...

my baby...

things went well now...we less quarrel..and she treat me so good^^

i really love her..but..sometimes i keep on bully her..im so**y baby..:(

on sunday baby went to my new house! finally!

im so happy to have her there...xixi..she finally saw my room! which is very dirty..haha!

with Calvin and pei nee...they even cook instant noodle =.=

i cant wait for December to come! its so exciting.. being with my baby whole day whole night^^ YEAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

hahaha..all i gotta say is...i love you bibi..bubu will always be with u^^

不可以走

我现在要学会跟加珍惜你。。

没了你的日子是不能过的。。

和你一起做的事。。

我要珍惜。。

简单的信息。。 好过电话没响。。

给你骂。。 好过没人管我。。

给你打我胸口。 好过没人疼。。

为你花钱。。 好过我钱自己花。。

迁你的手。。 好过我的手冷冷没人迁。。

吃你喂我的食物 好过我自己吃没人喂。。

捏我的脸。。 好过没人捏。。

叫我比比。。 好过没人这样叫我。。。

爱我。。 好过没人爱。。

比比我真的会珍惜你，

疼你

爱你

mistake

I'm so sorry dude, i made a mistake

i dint know you will take it so seriously

i dint treat u as spotlight at all, never

because you are like my bro

i cant just think you are a spotlight, i dont mind also if u do

all i can say is sorry

i feel so bad i made this mistake...

...

she off her phone...what should i do...

Ramdom 3

so yesterday i went to penang..with my baby and bunch of friends..

i dint plan to go untill my baby say she is coming with me^^

i had a blast yesterday..i feel very happy too..because she..

she keep on hold my hand..and not like last time..

she will stick with me..she wants to hold my hand..=)

so we went to queensbay first and prangin..

bought myself a short..and went to PDI bought me and my babe a polo T ^^

than later...something really bad..happened..

i hold her hand..walking..than i meet my relatives..

for the first sec..i thought about walking over to say hi

but im holding her hand...so i dint think about anything..i shake her hand off..

walk stright and ignore her untill i walk pass my relative...

than later..i hold her hand back and say its my relative walk by..

her face..totally changed from the face i love to see whole day in the morning and afternoon..into the face im terrified to see..

my heart went blank..i know..i know how she feels..when the min i shake her hand off..

i know how hurt that feels..

but than she keep on the face untill we found my friends eating at the restaurant..

than we talk about it..she finally changed her face back to normal a...3/4..haha

than when we finished eating..

we walk around the shops..

i hold her hand..walking towards a junction..

i saw my cousin and her 3 kids with her husband..im thinking...

i cant let her feel that way again..so i hold her hand and they just walk passed..

i told her..who are they..blah blah blah..

her face changed back to the "bad" face...

this time even worse....

i cant explain how frustrated and heart broken on that moment..

i feel like i just wanna walk into a wall and kill myself..

she told me" i just want you to be proud, hold my hand and walk towards tham and say...this is my girlfriend."

when she told that to me i knew it...

my eyes already got tears in it..just dint flow down..

but after that..she finally changed back to normal^^ the face im missing for the pass few hours or so..

so we went back that day very exhausted..

Today..

woke up and recieved her msg=)

so i replied her..and i went to play badminton with my sis and cousins..

and she..is taking an english exam at penang..

so after the test..she got into level 3^^ im so happy for her..really..

so she went to gurney with her mother..

my phone batt just left only 1 bar and no charger.......!@@^%$%^!^

so she send me a msg..say.." my mom said we cant hold hands"

my heart went broken again..and some few more msg..

we are only 16..only holding hands..

we cant hug or do anything...very eye saw..

blah blah blah..

im very disappointed..

so she send me a last msg saying.." so we just hand hand alright?"

im about to send her back a few words but my phone suddenly.." battrey empty..recharge"

so i just quickly reply her an " en" to her..i know its bad to reply this...

but fucking phone..so i got no way...

im soo worried about her..i took a nap and woke up..wanting to find her badly..

i called her using my house phone..dint pick up..

i borrow my sis phone..want to write a msg to her..and my sis keep asking me to quickly..

sony phones=.=

and i just send"dont worry about me, im fine"

but than she called on my house phone..

saying.."what?" blah blah blah

feels so bad...

but than i say what happend..and everything..im fine..

so she say..later u look at your phone than you know...

shit..im so scared that moment..so so scared..i think this is the end..

i cant control myself right now! im so scared!!

but i remembered what she said.." i wont leave you"

i wonder it is true..

if its not that she wanted to say...some other bad stuffs..i cant stand the pain too..im SCARED!

untill now..i cant on my phone...just listening to my own heartbeat...how fast it is right now...

i really really love you baby...im sorry for the things i've done....

如何疼你的男友

1、男友是拿来爱的，不是拿来气的。爱男友就是爱自己。

2、男友想吃苹果时马上就去洗。经验证明推来推去的结果不仅有伤和气而且所消耗的时间和能量已经能洗完苹果了。

3、点菜时要明确说出想吃什么。免得点完之后谁都不爱吃或者只有一方爱吃事后犯嘀咕。

4、吵架时绝不说分手或者离婚，免得事后下不了台。 ……要是我错了，吵过之后，看他还死绷着脸，我就装可爱，装可怜，装精灵鼠小弟、装蜡笔小新、装樱桃小丸子，总之，就是死皮赖脸地往他身上粘。这招屡试不爽！要是我占理，他错了，我就摆一副后娘脸，再适当赏他一些搭话的机会，他会十分诚恳地向我道歉，诚恳到我绷不住脸。

5、尽量不要用食物做礼物，免得吃完之后就忘记。

6、吵架时尽量少发火多流泪。

7、一定要记住的男友生日（阳历的和农历的），保证第一个向男友说生日快乐。

8、养成一见男友就笑的习惯，特别是下班回家开门时。

9、需要男友陪同而男友不能陪同的时候想象自己是保家卫国者的妻子，告诉他：你忙吧，我能行。

10、软磨硬泡的时候注意发挥女性特色。

11、故意在他半睡半醒的时候亲他并帮他盖好被子。

12、在他吹嘘自己的时候假装很崇拜他，并表现出对未来幸福生活充满希望的样子。 其实，更多的男士钟情于对女人炫耀自己的种种好处，这时只要聆听就好了。因为他只是想让你“崇拜”他一下，记得还要时常给他一个肯定的眼神。

13、在你看电视或碟片，看到故事里的婚姻生活很悲惨的时候，想一下你男友对你好的时候，不在身边的话就给他打个电话，在身边的话，就趴在他身上哭一会，并且说，我们不要那样好不好？

14、在男友向你献殷勤之后表现出特别兴奋的样子，并且说一句“男友你对我最好了！”以资鼓励。

15、偶尔的用不经意的语气对男友说起诸如某位男同事刚来的时候想请你去喝咖啡，而你却因为想要给他去买件T恤拒绝的事。　

Ramdom 2..

today exam account and english essay..

and f**k two subject i did real bad...like shit..

accounts i did only few..and not even sure i did write or not..

english....man...i dont even have time..

spend too much time on the first essay..

so the 2nd essay is 350 words..i dont even know i have reach that ammount or not..

and write halfway..nose bleed..held my head up n drink blood...EDWARD!!

hahaha

so went back home..as usual..on laptop and lay on bed..

so she ask me to go to up floor for study...teach them science..

end up..u know how..end up with a bunch of photos instead of science in our brain...

but we spend some happy times there too^^ she kissed me infront of yu xuan and jolynn...

xuan gone crazy already...hahaha^^

so thats about it...tomorrow exam mandrin and...bm i think...hahaha...

im dead!

so..untill next post..^^

mood---->happy^^ smiling:)

because baby is with me..^^ mucks mucksss

我为什么那么不了解她？

她生日差不多要到了

我一直在想要买什么

直到昨天

我跟朋友去sunway..

去到那边了..买戏票了..跟他们去唱歌..

唱一半..我叫树原陪我去买生日礼物给她..

我看这次有机会买就买咯..怕没机会嘛..

我就不知道要买什么..可是我相信我比比..

她说过.."你买什么我都会喜欢的"

还有"你喜欢我就喜欢咯"

那我就去看bear bear..

看到一只狗..很可爱..连我也喜欢..通常对这些没兴趣的..可是我喜欢那只..虽然很小只

我就很高兴的买起来..可是..我买时..

觉得好像她会不大喜欢..可是我相信我比比说的那句话.......

买了..回到家..他们已经绑美美起来的..可是我还是要开..哈哈..

开了..我就娘到死一直在那边看他摸他..

我就打给比比一直暗示她..哈哈..

她知道我买生日礼物时..

我就问她..你是喜欢什么礼物?

她就说..我讲我不要什么..

不要好像上次你送我的..

很普通..

我听了..我心想残了啦..眼睛看着那只狗狗..

失望..

过后她就一直逼我说我买什么..

我就一直暗示她..到她知道了..她说..

我很失望..

我那时很讨厌我自己了..为什么我那么不了解我自己的比比..

我也看得出她很失望..我也知道我很笨..非常那种..

我只想买多一只小狗..陪着那只大狗..

好像你陪着我一样

Very Happy today. .!

Today its considered as the most happiest day of my life..:)

because i went to her house..her parents not in so im allowed^^ haha

so i ask my dad to send me to her house for study..bring along my bag but when i reach threre

never touched it..haha

so when im there..i feel like..the house belongs to us both..

i feel like we live togather^^

wish we can.....

im so happy today i cant describe..being with her...nothing tops that..

i just wish i can spend whole day including the night with her..

but..im still 17..staying with my parents and no driving licence...so lame..

baby..today im very happy being with you...i wish i can stay with u everyday this way

at your house..^^

just simple..not complicated...just want to love you..

every day..

every hour..

every minute..

every second..

to make you happy forever..:)

Story of today..16th..

today is our big day...

there are some real sad things happened today

but later, sadness gone and happiness comes^^

i woke up today pretty late..saw my phone with lots of msg from her..

she is looking for me....and im sleeping..so useles..hahaha

so later on, we planned about going to my new house with calvin, hui si and qi

and her too of course^^

so than i taught everything is going to be fine and happy

untill..

my dad said

"who said i'm going to bring u guys to bertam??"

than im like..FxxK..no way this is happening..

than after that i sms her..i said cant go..

she replied me sadly...that time my heart straight feel like its crushed by a car..

than i called her..she say cant go nvm..than she hung up..

2nd time call..

hung up..

3rd time..

hung up

that time i've gone crazy..i keep hitting my head at...anything hard..

when i take my lunch...i just finish the white rice in my bowl without any other food..

later i went to my balcony..sat down there..looking at the sky..its very hot out there..

but i dont care..the hot cant compare to the feeling im suffering that time...

looking at the cars and the shiny sky..tears dripping down..

thinking..i've let her down again..why am i such a loser..

looking myself in the mirror..i said to myself.."come on..smile..dont be so sad"

i try to smile..but feel like somebody is pulling my lips..cant smile at all..

than later..she said..she is coming to my old house...

when i see that..my heart totally healed..i can finally smile..than i open the room door..

and walk down to the hall...watching badminton...and waiting for her to come^^

wow..luckly she came today..atleast..

my whole person feel so good that time...

no more suffer in my body..

i love her so much...i cant even live a day without her...i cant explain how much i love her..

her heart and my heart its combined now...two of us only got 1 heart...

so hard to separate..

so hard to live when she is not infront of me..

baby..you love me this much too right??

ramdom update..

just a simple update here..

today is just another normal saturday..bored..

just came back from badminton match with some bitches..

well im still the best among them..hahaha..

im going to shu yuan's birthday party later

ili bit lazy to go..cus someone is not going..

if she is going why am i still lazy?haha

and..another thing is..

tomorrow is me and her 2nd month anniversary^^

and f**k i still dont know how tomorrow she and some friend come to my new house

cus my dad and mom are very busy about our maid thing..

me and my bii been 2 months togather now..and i believe..we can go very very far togahter^^

love her so much cant even stop thinking of her every sec..

you are mine and i'm yours now^^

xoxo

:P

Time past so fast..

well, this is my first time blogging..
so i dont know much how all of these work..its ok, i'll get use to it..

time past in a blink of an eye, getting faster each year..
almost middle of the year now and im still "sleeping"
got to catch up on my studies of not i'm dead..because someone keep on ask me to study hard^^

and about "her"...i'm just so thankful to have her in my life now..
im madly in love with her..yesterday..something stupid happend..
she dint reply my msg and pick up my phone calls..
which makes me really seriously gone crazy!
i feel like i've lost her...that feeling is so crazy..
i cant smile at all, no strength, my hands are shaking..
but than she replied me after a few hours..
i felt so relieved...she is there..^^
i can finally smile...............
that type of feeling is so weird...i cannot lose her...she means so much to me

i love u so much^^
sha gua...